"Sooo my mirror broke as I pulled it off my door. I decided to decorate it anyway in hopes that it will glue back together. I thought about this, and our dorm theme for the year was God shaping us into reflections of Him. Sometimes God has to "break" us in order to make us look more like His image. Now this will always remind me that whenever I am broken, God is using it to make me look more like his image. I guess it worked out well that my mirror broke :)" -May 5th, 2011
At this point of my freshman year, I thought that God had broken me as much as he would need to in my entire lifetime. I thought I had gone through enough pain and heartache to last me until eternity in heaven. But in reality, that has been ANYTHING but true. He has continued to break me, and in reality it has been beautiful. Hard, sad, painful- but beautiful.
I have had a lot going on personally over the past few weeks with dealing with stuff at school, keeping hwk dates straight, friend problems, physical "sickness", and simply just having a rough time. Every day I have had to consciously turn to Jesus, and say "Abba I cannot do this on my own! I need you!" But through this, it has been simply amazing to see God working! So while I should be miserable, I have been happier now than I have been in a long time.
I heard a song about a week ago, and it has literally what has kept me focused on Jesus over the past few days and not get too wrapped up in the things of this world. Part of the lyrics have really caught my attention:
"Get a glimpse of Jesus
For He is right there with you
He knows just what you need"
All I could keep telling myself was that Jesus knew just what I needed even if I didn't. And yesterday, God completely blew my mind through blessings. (PS. If you want to hear the rest of the song it is "When Life Gets Broken by Sandi Patty)
The first, came through a beautiful sunrise on my way to U of M Hospital to get some tests run. It blew my mind, and reminded me simply how BIG my God truly is, and how in control of every single detail of our lives that he is.
This is a huge way God shows me He loves me. Every time I see a sunrise, I just want to melt because I know it is a reflection of His love for me and he did it just to make me smile. This was my first blessing of the day.
The second came from my wonderful "big sister" Ashley. I checked my mail yesterday, and discovered I had a package waiting for me. I went and got it, and found a book from Amazon, perfectly applicable to a lot of stuff I had been dealing with. The catch? No idea who it was from. Finally, at the end of the day, I texted my friend Ashley and she told me she had sent it. (Reminder: She is in Mexico!) This simply blew my mind- the fact that my friend who is 3000 miles away thought of me, and sent me this book. But in reality- God worked through her weeks ago and urged her to get this book for me, and it came at exactly the moment in time that I needed it! Mindblowing.
My third blessing of the day came from a lady named Judy Wuckert. She is an angel sent from God, and a huge blessing in my life. I had the opportunity to interview her yesterday, and God used her in some incredible ways to speak truth into my heart. I was blown away at how God used a hwk assignment to change the entire course of my day!
And finally, as the sun began to set, I walked outside to this scene. And it was like God was saying "I love you Princess. Thank you for trusting me today. I am taking care of you- Please rest in my presence tonight." I was literally in blessing heaven. My heart was so filled with joy I could barely believe it.
So here is my random thought of the day for you: God knows what you need. Catch a glimpse of Jesus, he is right there with you. He isn't going anywhere. Trust him and let him help you like he helped me. He has got you in his arms!
