The Beginning of the End

I sit here in Rebekah Dorm room 1 knowing it is my last night or at least one of my last nights in the "Summer Dorm". I cannot even begin to put into words how incredibly fast this summer has flown by. It truly seems that just yesterday I was asking my lovely, incredible summer roommate Kristen Chenoweth if she would be willing to put up living with me for months. And now here I sit. Appx. 2 months later, and we never fought, never tried to kill each other and we had a great time living together. We've laughed, we've cried, we've screamed and yelled and overall had a great time. I realized something last night though;

It's the beginning of the end.

When I move back into Silas either tomorrow or sometime this week, it will be the last time I move into a dorm. EVER. It's the beginning of the end, the first of lasts, whatever you want to call it. However you look at it, my time at Concordia is coming to a close, and in a lot of ways that absolutely breaks my heart. I cannot imagine leaving this place that I have learned to call home, or leaving my friends who I consider my family. I have had many people ask me over the past few months "Are you excited to be graduating?!" and quite frankly, no, I am not. Right now, I am not so thrilled to be graduating, to be leaving this place, to take on such a ginormus change that will be incredible and exciting, yet painful and sad at the same time. I know there will be tears of joy, and tears of sadness throughout this fall as I complete my final semester of classes, and I know in a lot of ways the closer I get to graduating, the more I may feel that I am not ready to take on this change.

But you know what? I have done something like this before. It was this thing called high school. And while I think this transition will be much more difficult and emotional than my high school transition, I know that I can do it. You wanna know why? Cuz I have God on my side and he is using every day to prepare me for the next step of my journey after graduation.

So yes. I am afraid. I am excited. And I am nervous. But here is my random thought of the day for you: Don't let go. Hold on to every moment that you can. These days go by so fast, and will be gone before you know it. So enjoy the little things, and enjoy this moment of life you are in. Don't try to rush straight to the end and focus on one big thing like I have been doing with graduation. There are so many small moments inbetween that God has placed there just for you. So let go. Be free, and enjoy this life he has given you!!