I heard this song for one of the first times today and I feel that it completely summarizes my life currently. My life is crazy, and strange and yet I know that I can face anything because I have Jesus.
I haven't exactly found my "summer groove" yet. I haven't re-adjusted to living at home again or anything that comes with that. Im not used to seeing my home friends more than once a week, and I am not used to having nothing to do other than clean or organize my stuff. My life is simply crazy- changing from one day to the next and I never know what each day is going to bring which is kind of unsettling and nerve wracking.
I feel like I should have more to write, but I honestly just wanted to share this song with you and let you know that you are not the only one if your life also seems to be totally crazy right now. God's got you in his hands no matter how crazy your life is. And he is using this to build you into a stronger, better, person who reflects his image. I am willing to go through a little craziness to become more like God- aren't you?
It has almost been three weeks since I moved out of Concordia for the second time and finished my Sophomore year of college. I cannot even believe how fast time has gone by. It seems like just yesterday I was graduating from high school and yet in some ways that feels like it was an eternity ago. The end of this year was definitely bittersweet- more so than last year. I was very, very ready to get this year done and behind me, but at the same time there were some reasons I didn't want it to end. It wasn't a bad year- I made some solid new friendships, got involved in a lot, and had a ton of fun. One of my best friends and mentors also graduated this year- a major reason I didn't want this year to come to an end. But there was also a lot of drama, changes, and other things that I simply am ready to put behind me and move forward.
So often in life we look at things as black and white- It was either good, or it was bad. It cannot be both. But I disagree with that statement. If we go through life with a black and white perspective, life is going to be dull and boring. You will never experience true love or true pain. You will simply stay on one side that is always good or one side that is always bad. I think that is the main lesson I learned this year. Life isn't black or white- it is shades of gray. And until you understand that you are never going to live a fulfilling life. If things could only be one flavor- we wouldn't have amazing candy like Sour Patch kids. They would either have to be sour or sweet- and what fun would that be?!
I will admit that I am nervous about what the fall is going to bring. I don't know who my roommate is going to be, one of my best friends will be in Mexico, and I am starting a bunch of new things to dive into preparation for my career. Thats the part that is kind of sour- and if I only focus on that, I am going to be miserable. But I also get to look forward to living in a dorm filled with amazing people, a new spiritual life position to figure out, and simply the start of an exciting new year. The best part? I have Jesus on my side. That means I may be fearful of what is going to come next- but I don't have to live in fear because I know that he has already taken care of it and it is going to be exactly what I need at that time.
Life is like eating a pack of Sour Patch Kids. We need sour and sweet things in our life. Without one or the other life would be boring and meaningless.
