You see, after getting off the phone with her I realized this: I forgot to do my Child Life Council Coursework Certification earlier this summer. It takes two weeks to process the paperwork. I cannot apply to 99.99% of hospitals without this paperwork. My applications are due September 5th. Rut Ro!
I worked hard all afternoon trying to clean up my own mess, and finally frustrated and in tears I went to my advisors office and tried to work on it with her. I came out a little less defeated, but still very angry with myself for doing something so stupid. I had dinner with friends who helped me start to see that God was still in control and I needed to just trust him.
Then, I talked with my good friend Ashley, and we just talked about how God has me here for a specific reason, and even if everything falls apart, and I have to go with my advisors "safety net" plan so I will still graduate on time, God is still in control. And you wanna know what else we realized?
I cannot clean up my own mess. I need God.
Wow. That is hard to swallow. I cannot clean up this mess. I have to let him intervene and take over. That is extremely hard for me to do. I ended up taking a step back and praying about it and I slowly found 3 hospitals I can apply to for the spring! God was slowly starting to show me his power and love and mercy, and I started calming down for the first time allllll day.
Finally feeling a little better about life, and truly trusting God's plan, I went for a run. And this song stayed on repeat the entire mile run:
And I realized this: I WILL OVERCOME THIS ROADBLOCK. No, I may not end up doing my internship in Ft. Wayne, but God has got this and I will overcome!!! I will overcome my struggle, and pain and frustration all through Jesus- my overcomer!
So then, full of energy and motivation, I had a great conversation with my friend Stephanie about life and how God was working in our lives. It just encouraged me soooo much as we talked about no matter how much we screw up God still loves us and will use it for his good.
So then, full of energy and motivation, I had a great conversation with my friend Stephanie about life and how God was working in our lives. It just encouraged me soooo much as we talked about no matter how much we screw up God still loves us and will use it for his good.
THEN. Near the end of Offerings we sang this song and Steph ran over and said: "This is your song tonight!" And I realized it was true. I loved the part that said "You make all things work together for my good!" It's true!
So here is my random thought of the day for you: No matter what you are facing, good bad or ugly God will use it for your good! No matter where I end up for my internship in 4 months God will work it for my good! And while the struggle is not yet over and will not be till October 9th, I trust that He will work all things together for my good!!!!
