Monday, October 15, 2012

Soul Sisters


The two people pictured above are Becky Chaplin and Kristen Chenoweth. These two girls are my best friends at Concordia. I sit here on a Sunday night after getting to spend quality time with Becky on Saturday and Kristen today, and I just cannot believe how blessed I am to have these two girls in my life.

Earlier this afternoon, I thought back to November of my freshman year of college, to a specific night when I was sitting in my SLR Ashley's room sobbing and telling her how much I missed my home friends and how I was desperate for true, soul-sister type friendship here at Concordia. I prayed the same prayer all through my freshman year, and through my sophomore year asking that God would please show me who these "special" friends would be. I never in a million years thought he would answer my prayers and give me so much more than I could ever ask for. So, the rest of this blog post is a shout out to my soul sisters, I want to share with you a piece of the amazing people God has placed in my life here at Concordia!!

Becky Chaplin- You are my ray of Sonshine! Your smile, your laugh, your giggles just bring me such joy. Your passion for Jesus is amazing, and so incredibly inspiring! I love our long talks, and our deep love for Christian music. I love our crazy obsessions with the Parent Trap, and the pure happiness we both experience over a Mountain Dew slushy. I love your desire to be as real with people as possible, and your passion to help others no matter what that may mean. I love how much you love Charlie, and your brother and your parents and how happy you become simply when one of them texts you. You are beautiful my dear. Flaws and all. You are precious, and I am thankful for you.

Kristen Chenoweth- Well homeskillet, there is a lot I can say about you. You are so strong, and I admire your family values, and how you will do anything to help someone you love. I love our "junk food moments" and knowing we shouldn't eat the junk but we do it anyways. I love our prayer times, and our devo times together. I love how you won't hide your faith for anything, and it is truly everything to you. I love your passion for life. I love seeing you smile, and hearing you laugh. I love hearing you pour you heart out as you write songs at the piano. I love how we can read each others minds and know what we are thinking. I love our sarcasm, and the moments that we are so "mean" to each other, but it is truly an expression of love. You are amazing my dear- and I love you dearly!

Ashley Hart- I love you friend. I thought that having you in Mexico was going to be beyond terrible. I was so scared you were going to leave and never talk to me again. And yet, you have proved me wrong in so many ways. God is using you for such great things in Puebla, and it is so amazing. The way you let God mold you and use you is so inspiring, and inspires me to deepen my relationship and trust in him every day. Your smile lights up a room whenever you come in, and your passion to help others is beautiful. I love our coffee dates, and frogs, and deep talks and memories of Esther. I love laughing with you, crying with you, talking with you, smiling with you. You are the best big sister in Christ I could ever ask for. I love you so much. Thank you for continuing to let God use you. You are impacting people thousands of miles away from you, and God is going to continue to use you for some big things.

Jamie Mack- My magic juice friend. I love you. Oh so much. From the moment I met you my freshman year in Biology, I knew we would be great friends. I love our late night talks, and the passion you have to help others. I love laughing with you, praying with you, screaming with you, and just being with you. You are an amazing person, and I hope you realize that. I love to see you smile and hear you giggle. I cannot wait to see what you do as a teacher- your kids are gonna love you! I hope you know how much I appreciate all the notes you send me in my mailbox, and when you make me special coffees in the nest. I love you friend. And I can't wait to see how God uses you next!

Stephanie Joy Emington- I love our "God" moments. I love how we can both just step outside and the morning sky will take our breathe away. I love sharing Taco Bell together and our long talks. I love our prayer times together, and our ability to be able to be real with each other. Your passion for your faith is unbeliavble, and you challenge me every day. I love how real and honest and open you are with God, and how you allow him to mold you every day. It is incredible  Thank you for being you friend. You are amazing.

Sarah Bartok- You were my first Concordia friend. I couldn't wait to move into Esther and meet you face to face! I love your passion for life, and your desire to help people grow in their faith. I love how important your family and friends are to you, and how you would give up anything to be there for someone else. I love how you are a diehard State fan, even when they don't win. I love reminiscing about "Esther" things with you, and how we can laugh and laugh about nothing. I love how hard you work, and how important it is to you that you do a good job. I am so happy we have known each other for almost 3 years now. It has been a great journey and I can't wait to see where God leads us next!

Emily Kuhlman- I have so many moments that I could write about right now. Moments of extreme laughter, frustration, pain, and sadness. You have helped me so much to become the person God wants me to be. You have helped me learn how to express emotions properly (for the most part lol) and how to treat people in ways they want to be treated. You have helped me SO much with Child Life stuff, and helped me move forward in my major by an incredible amount. I am so thankful God placed you in my life last year, and I can't wait to see how he uses you next!

To anyone else I may have left out (and trust me, there are probably a lot of you!) I love you. Dearly. But, it is now 12:34 on Monday morning, and I need to go to bed. So, know that I love you and appreciate you, and I will do this again someday and include you :)

To end this long post, here is my random thought of the day for you- Go tell your best friend that you love and appreciate them. Tell them why you love them, and what they do that just makes you smile. And don't forget to thank God for putting these special people in your life! :) 



Monday, October 8, 2012

My Tank Is Empty


I came to a solid conclusion yesterday afternoon- I simply cannot keep living my life the way I have been for the past month and a half. I am going to lose my mind if I have to go through one more week like the ones I have had so far this semester.

I haven't had the ability to go to church in at least 4 weeks. I have either been out of town, at training, or sick. My soul is desperate for time just with Jesus, and it hasn't happened. I have been falling behind on my homework even while trying to pay very close attention to what is going on and due dates. I have not spent time with some of my good friends due to lack of "time". I haven't eaten a meal in the cafeteria in over a week because I have been having to get "To Go" meals for every meal. I feel like I have been on the go since the moment I stepped foot back on this campus. I have not had one day of complete rest, and I am starting to pay for it.

My gas tank has been getting to the point of empty for a few weeks now. I have been running on little or no fuel, and expecting myself to function at full capacity. I don't know what else I can do to help myself- I have cut down my hours at both of my jobs, I have tried to set aside "Jesus Time" every day and yet everday becomes the same blur of busyness that leaves me overwhelmed and exhausted every night. I am finally out of gas, and there are no gas stations anywhere in sight. Great.

Why am I telling you this? I don't really know. I guess so that maybe you don't let your tank get completely empty as I have done. Stop and get gas before you run out. Say no to people, make yourself a priority. You are going to regret it if you don't.